insomia

how could people sleep??!?!!!!
i am tired ...mind stopped...or my be hallucinations...confusion.. i really think i got to sleep
but i cant sleep
my be my body dont want to leave this day
or dont want the next day
or may be i didn't do all what i have to do
all may be simply i want to talk or say what i did or what i suffer to some one

fter the accedant

there is a sound of crush in your mind
a very loud one
it took your brain out of your skull
it crush your heart in your chest
every thing become black and suddenly no sound
after some time you started moving
after some time you opened your eyes
take a rapid shallow breathes
then you realized that a new road have been appeared
a new road was obscured by the rubbish before the crush
but the crush clear every thing
now you are with new life and new road
just only u suffered from little pain
with no heart and brain
no heart and brain

machine out of control

A lot of thoughts running in my mind
the game seems to be verY big... a lot of options in my way
a lot of choices and opportunities
a lot of hope and a lot of trust in me
a lot of facilities
I try a lot ....never give up
dreams never ends
hope never fade
too much effort ..a lot of weapons in my hand
a lot of tasks. a lot of missions
in very short age
I am just a huge machine
never can be controlled alone
never can be in the wright way
without help of someone
and no one can help
except God
God knows everything ..God feels every thing .. God can every thing
GOD is kind God is helpful God love me God care of me
God the only one
and I must do simple one thing only
call him and never leaves the first prays

MADNEES

ko el nass meday2ah me 7ayatha
ko el nass ma7'no2ah we m7batah we ya2sah
mafeesh 7ad 3andoh tomo7 aw amal aw 7atah tawakolwe sekah fe allah
mafeesh 7ad hases en rabena bey7eboh
we mafeesh 7ad bey7el mashakoloh betarekah mawdo3eyah we mafeesh 7ad bey7awel yefham
we lama te7wael ta3mel kol dah
yo2oloh 3aleek magnon
we 3agaby

when all think that u will fade away

I have been there for a long time , struggling , fighting acing fear , people and even myself
don't know how but I know I will when at the end
now every one think that no hope from me , "Mohsen is just naughty hopeless boy no use of him"
that's all what they says
u know that thy don't know the rue
u know that the don't no "hope" they don't know "God" they don't know me and the suffering day and the pain
but God know so I don't care there is a deal between us and i keep on my promises
He know the deal and I know the deal so I don't care
no one beside me , and no one expects good thing for me accept Lobna and romanyand younees
and me and that enough for me
I will do it if God will
I will do it for the bleeding nights for the pain for lobna for Romany for youness
I will do it for me
i will do it for me
I will do it for my God cause I deserve his gifts cause I love him cause he always beside me if Mazen didn't believe
I will do it for the deal
the deal between us

PAIN

1- Pain: is a sign of error, as long as there is pain as Long as there is something wrong may be that's"something" is in yourself or on the others or anything whatever he is, pain will still hurting u until u fix its cause, so if u feel pain don't cry just search for the cause and treat it.
2- Pain: when u lose something vital for ur live, something u naturally need, all u have to do is just be patient and wait , may be after sometime u find it again or a substitute for it or something make u hold on for sometime or.............get used to miss it forever.
3- Pain: is the feeling which push u to be better ,to gain more benefits or to get red of harmful things .
PAIN: is Necessary for life so..............I prefer death .

just by feeling

I made a mistake ..it doesn't matter I do better in the next situation
why I always feel like this
i don't wanna to be alone with myself
its more than painful
today i know that deep in ourselves we now the wright from wrong so we have to leave it do its without thoughts that's what means experience u learn alone be self learning
we must live and have some harmful and bites
but we don't have to think too much in the situation
cause this is life
ur soul know the wright
leave it to ur soul and have faith , strength and believe in ur sensation
don't ever ask why you feel that's wrong or wright
cause ur feeling never be false but ur mind imagine only the ad situation and what ur afraid from and make it true in the back of ur head
so u when the situation repeat itself u only see the bad frightening end
and never be good
so believe in God He is good and never want to harm u, this world is belong to Him
and trust ur feeling it never be wrong
they thoughts , opinions and ur believes also may be wrongs
but ur feeling can not .
uptill now u didnt think thats mean u will do better in the nexet time dont worry